I just can’t..


I called him for the very first time since we broke up..

Dengan maksud mau tanya kabarnya dia.

Gue kuatin hati, supaya gak tiba-tiba nangis di telp.

Pelan-pelan gue pencet nomernya.

Nada sambung.

..

“Hai De, apa kabar kamu? Ih udah lama deh aku gak denger kabar kamu, kamu lagi dimana? Jalan-jalan ya?”

“….”

“De…?”

Suddenly i heard him crying, hard..

“Ti…Temen aku meninggal ti….Marwa ti, kecelakaan motor.. aku banyak salah ti sama dia.. dia pergi terlalu cepet sebelum aku sempet minta maaf sama dia.. “

“…”

“Ti nanti kamu aku telp lagi aja ya..”

“…” I was trying so hard to not crying! “Iya de, yaudah kamu yang kuat, doain dia, ikhlasin Marwan, sabar ya de..”

Dia marah masih bisa gue terima.

Dia bentak masih bisa gue ngertiin.

Dia diem masih bisa gue pahamin.

..Dia nangis..? I just can’t………

I just can’t..

(may you rest in peace dear good friend..tho i only met you once, you were such a funny person, a gorgeous man with a big smile on his face…..)

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