I’m (not) dying..


I’m Dying, Dying to wake up without you, without you in my head again
I’m Dying, Dying to forget about you, that you ever lived
There’s a shade come over this heart that’s coping with laying down to rest
I’m Dying to live without you again..

“Tadi siapa namanya? Sorry gue lupa, gue Derryl”.

Saya tersenyum. Mengulurkan tangan untuk yang kedua kalinya, “Anti,”

Dia pun tersenyum, tidak melepaskan tangannya.

I’m Dying, Dying to find a distraction, get you away from me
I’m Dying, Dying to reach a conclusion, so that the world can see
It’s the same old story of love and glory that broke before it bent
I’m Dying to live without you again

“Kamu tau Ryl? Gak pernah aku ngerasa sesakit ini.. Aku udah ngelakuin semuanya buat kamu Ryl..”

Saya menatap dia tanpa ekspresi. Hati saya sakit, sampai tidak bisa menangis lagi.

“Maafin aku Ti.. Aku khilaf..,” Dia pun menunduk, menangis.

The first time you left I said goodbye
Now there’s not a prayer that can survive

“Maybe this is it, time to say goodbye,” he said, over the phone.

“Yes, i think it is..” dengan nafas panjang, saya menutup telepon.

Dying, Dying to die just to come back so we can meet again
Dying, Dying to say what I always should have said
It’s a strange emotion this but there’s still hope in this
As long as there’s a breath…
I’m Dying and I can’t live without you again..

“Aku mau mengulang semuanya, start over, can we? Please?” He asked me with a soft tone, looked into my eyes.

“De.. Kamu gak ngerti.. kita gak bisa.. Maafin aku..,” sekarang saya yang nunduk, dan ngerasain sakit yang dulu pernah saya rasain.

It’s a strange emotion this but there’s still hope in this
As long as there’s a breath…

Saya mengatur nafas, untuk mengurangi sesak yang ada di dada..

I’m Dying and I can’t live without you..
I’m Dying and I can’t live without you again..

Saya tau dan yakin…

it’s only the song and the memories..

For you, didn’t mean to hurt you by writing this.. I’m just trying to be honest.. (gak tau sih ngaruh apa ngga buat kmu, hehe).

Can’t wait to see you beb..

(Five for Fighting – Dying)

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